Tuesday, June 29, 2010
....
SO I am coming to the conclusion that my life is becoming a delema.
Yes I am serious.... okay I might be dramatizing just a little bit, but seriously. I feel like a puddle that wants to some how get to the ocean but will never get big enough to flow.
What does God want of me? What do I want of myself?
I want to be passiontate about something like I see other people be. Everyone one I know is passionate about something .. I feel so lukewarm in everything.
Christin and Morgan are passionate about their instruments that they play... not a day goes by that they don't play them or at least think of them. Shannon is passionate about running and soccer, Bailey is great with the drums, Stephanie is passionate about marriage ( she as informed me that she will be getting ingaged in ... was it this August .. don't mention that I said that ;) ).... Angela is just passionate about life in general.
Basically... I want to be sure of what I want... I want to want something. I want to know what I want. I want to be able to throw myself into something that I am happy doing and that I don't feel burdened by. I know that I love horses but I guess I am looking for something else... I want something that I can't quit put my finger on. Well... I guess what I really want to be passionate about is my Faith. Passionate about God. I want to want to love Him with my whole heart. I want to want to Pursue Him with everything in me... but to be totally honest... I am afraid of what he will do.... I am afraid of I will not do. You read stories of the lives of the saints and other people who have accomplished to the best of their ability loving God with their whole hearts. I want to make Christ as happy as they did but I am so selfish with myself. I keep thinking that "being holy isn't that fun" but I am so wrong ... that is a temptation from satan. ... Just look at the saints... they were so happy. Happy, helping others, whether it was with food, clothing. Whether it was helping the sick or others needing physical help or it was in the quit of a monestary praying for the body of Christ and the whole world. They pursued Christ..... I want to do that.. but it is so hard sometimes and yet... it is often so simple. Just one step at a time I guess..... I just have to make sure that I am not taking one step forward and two steps back.
As Coldplay says in their song "The Scientist" "Nobody said is was easy, no one ever said that it would be so hard"
Well.. I have done my venting for day. Now I will go and organize my room, cleaning up school notebooks, papers and books of all kinds, make my bed of course, hang up clothes in my closet that are hanging of my lamp right now, dust my dusty dresser and all that other good stuff... I will probably vacuum my room as well sometime today. I hope I can get a scrap-book page done today.
I was thinking yesterday that I should be like the Millers and change my room around some just for a little change.... Well I looked around and found that the room's furniture was already in the most logical and pleasant place. I guess I will just have to be content with a clean room as my change.
Remember to always pray for me especially as I discern about what Vocation that God has placed in my heart. I pray for both of you girls everyday at mass and unit myself to the Sacred Heart of Jesus, present in the Eucharist, so that we can be close.
I love you
God bless you
Your sister in Christ
~Guin~
Yes I am serious.... okay I might be dramatizing just a little bit, but seriously. I feel like a puddle that wants to some how get to the ocean but will never get big enough to flow.
What does God want of me? What do I want of myself?
I want to be passiontate about something like I see other people be. Everyone one I know is passionate about something .. I feel so lukewarm in everything.
Christin and Morgan are passionate about their instruments that they play... not a day goes by that they don't play them or at least think of them. Shannon is passionate about running and soccer, Bailey is great with the drums, Stephanie is passionate about marriage ( she as informed me that she will be getting ingaged in ... was it this August .. don't mention that I said that ;) ).... Angela is just passionate about life in general.
Basically... I want to be sure of what I want... I want to want something. I want to know what I want. I want to be able to throw myself into something that I am happy doing and that I don't feel burdened by. I know that I love horses but I guess I am looking for something else... I want something that I can't quit put my finger on. Well... I guess what I really want to be passionate about is my Faith. Passionate about God. I want to want to love Him with my whole heart. I want to want to Pursue Him with everything in me... but to be totally honest... I am afraid of what he will do.... I am afraid of I will not do. You read stories of the lives of the saints and other people who have accomplished to the best of their ability loving God with their whole hearts. I want to make Christ as happy as they did but I am so selfish with myself. I keep thinking that "being holy isn't that fun" but I am so wrong ... that is a temptation from satan. ... Just look at the saints... they were so happy. Happy, helping others, whether it was with food, clothing. Whether it was helping the sick or others needing physical help or it was in the quit of a monestary praying for the body of Christ and the whole world. They pursued Christ..... I want to do that.. but it is so hard sometimes and yet... it is often so simple. Just one step at a time I guess..... I just have to make sure that I am not taking one step forward and two steps back.
As Coldplay says in their song "The Scientist" "Nobody said is was easy, no one ever said that it would be so hard"
Well.. I have done my venting for day. Now I will go and organize my room, cleaning up school notebooks, papers and books of all kinds, make my bed of course, hang up clothes in my closet that are hanging of my lamp right now, dust my dusty dresser and all that other good stuff... I will probably vacuum my room as well sometime today. I hope I can get a scrap-book page done today.
I was thinking yesterday that I should be like the Millers and change my room around some just for a little change.... Well I looked around and found that the room's furniture was already in the most logical and pleasant place. I guess I will just have to be content with a clean room as my change.
Remember to always pray for me especially as I discern about what Vocation that God has placed in my heart. I pray for both of you girls everyday at mass and unit myself to the Sacred Heart of Jesus, present in the Eucharist, so that we can be close.
I love you
God bless you
Your sister in Christ
~Guin~
Friday, June 25, 2010
Hip Hip Hooray!!!!!!
Zephyr's the BEST!!!!!
Thats a great story Zephyr! I am glad that you took the time to post it on the blog :)
So I will probably see you today! :)
See ya this afternoon.... for just a little while!
God bless you
Your sister in Christ
~Guin~
Thats a great story Zephyr! I am glad that you took the time to post it on the blog :)
So I will probably see you today! :)
See ya this afternoon.... for just a little while!
God bless you
Your sister in Christ
~Guin~
Thursday, June 24, 2010
My amazing softball experience
Hey guys! Sorry it's been soooooo long! Anyways, I am going to tell you about my amazing Monday night:
So there I was, out on the field, the sun, beating down on my shoulders and trying to blind me. All around me, my team-mates had there eyes on the batter, so I looked at the batter too. At the Rover's position, I stood in the heat, praying to God to help me catch the ball if it came towards me, but not to give me any unfair advantage, just give me courage and strength. With only 1 out and a person on 1st, we looked to be in danger of allowing the other team a few points.
The pitcher looked around, meeting everyone's eyes, to make sure we were all paying attention. We were. Then he turned back and pitched the ball.
Freely, it sailed through the air, and straight towards home base. The batter prepared, and swung. A moderate smack was heard as the bat connected with the ball, and launched it towards me. Gracefully, I stuck me glove into the air, and caught it! Then I crossed 2nd base, and pitched the ball to 1st, getting both outs and ending the game, 27 to 11, our favor. Everyone politely told me I did well, and I politely told them "thank you very much", and that's how the amazing game went.
Not really.
What REALLY happened is this:
Last inning
Me at Rover
1/3 outs
1 guy on first
1 guy batting
Guy batting smacks the ball straight to me, fast and high, I catch it, run over second, throw to first (getting both outs) everyone stares at me for a second like 'is this really happening. Did Morgan actually do something good, or do my eyes deceive me?' Then they errupted into cheers and ran over to me, and high fives went all around, and some hugs and lots of congratulations, and everyone going "Oh my gosh! I can't believe it! Woo, you did it!" and me going "I know, I can't believe it either! I finally did something good!"
it was awesome. To put it simply.
And then I had to tell everyone at youth and they all thought it was cool:) And they were happy too:)
Love
Moi
So there I was, out on the field, the sun, beating down on my shoulders and trying to blind me. All around me, my team-mates had there eyes on the batter, so I looked at the batter too. At the Rover's position, I stood in the heat, praying to God to help me catch the ball if it came towards me, but not to give me any unfair advantage, just give me courage and strength. With only 1 out and a person on 1st, we looked to be in danger of allowing the other team a few points.
The pitcher looked around, meeting everyone's eyes, to make sure we were all paying attention. We were. Then he turned back and pitched the ball.
Freely, it sailed through the air, and straight towards home base. The batter prepared, and swung. A moderate smack was heard as the bat connected with the ball, and launched it towards me. Gracefully, I stuck me glove into the air, and caught it! Then I crossed 2nd base, and pitched the ball to 1st, getting both outs and ending the game, 27 to 11, our favor. Everyone politely told me I did well, and I politely told them "thank you very much", and that's how the amazing game went.
Not really.
What REALLY happened is this:
Last inning
Me at Rover
1/3 outs
1 guy on first
1 guy batting
Guy batting smacks the ball straight to me, fast and high, I catch it, run over second, throw to first (getting both outs) everyone stares at me for a second like 'is this really happening. Did Morgan actually do something good, or do my eyes deceive me?' Then they errupted into cheers and ran over to me, and high fives went all around, and some hugs and lots of congratulations, and everyone going "Oh my gosh! I can't believe it! Woo, you did it!" and me going "I know, I can't believe it either! I finally did something good!"
it was awesome. To put it simply.
And then I had to tell everyone at youth and they all thought it was cool:) And they were happy too:)
Love
Moi
Thursday, June 17, 2010
My Riding lesson and camping!
So here a few pics. from last Saturday that mom took of my riding lesson
Me grooming Quin (the horse) before the saddling up.
Getting into the big arena.
It was fun but I had to remember to remain hopeful... considering the fact that there is so much to remember and the desire to know it perfectly now...... patience... humility... Peace.
I praise God that I have the opportunity to be around these beautiful creatures. Praise God for His goodness!
Here are some more pictures from when we went camping with my godparents (also my aunt and uncle) their granddaughter (my cousin once removed) and my other aunt with three of her daughters. Dad didn't come with us because he participated in the Golf for life.
I didn't take very many at all. Just one day when we went to the river to swim. I guess I just wasn't in a "pictures taking mood"
The first day we just set up and talked ... what else do people do the majority of the time?
There was no swimming in the lake for wierd reasons that none of us can figure out. Don't tell me we can't swim in it because its drinking water.... I know thats what they say but PLEASE... if you have boats in there (leaking oil and all that good stuff, I can grantee) and fish of all kinds (cat fish and bass .. to name only a few) why in the world would say that you can't swim? AND to top it all off... we went to the river to go swimming BUT the river runs into the lake.. so sooner or later our germs (if that's what they really are worried about) will get into the lake which will then be brought into homes coming from the faucet... after being purified I am sure.
So anyways.... back to the subject... WE rented a motor boat for two hours that fit four at a time. With Stephanie driving and Anna Maria, Katie and myself as passengers we went out for an hour and then came back to dock so James could have a wing and driving the boat, with Anne Catherine, Faustina and Uncle Phil as passengers.
We had many visits from the local Skunks and raccoons at night and early in the morning... I was disappointing that I slept through all of them..... yeah.. right... and mother was so thrilled to welcome them at the door.... more like the tent flap. The skunks preferred the trash bag the first night while the Raccoon had it right all along for he went straight to the source... the ice chest. He got three eggs before mom decided to risk the skunk so as to save the eggs. There were three eggs missing in the morning.
the second night... after checking to make sure that everything was in the car .. out of reach of stinking little paws... mother once more heard the guests returning... and it sounded as if they were having a feast. Munch ..crunch crunchcrunch ...Munch crunch crunchcrunch. The Gram Crackers were left out next to the fire. So I guess after their midnight meal they were not completed satisfied and decided to see if any snacks, whether small or large, was concealed under the tent.
By morning all of the gram crackers were gone... a whole box... well... the box was still there, completely intact actually, but the contents had been devoured by the occupants of the camp in the earlier morning hours.
Both nights I had slept with Katie in her tent and was not disturbed whats so ever by any four legged local residents of Lake Cachuma.
The swimming hole that was so enjoyed.
Stephanie and Anna trying to find reception.
The girls after some time in the river and the bank. Isn't that a great tree?
A beautiful view of the bank from the middle of the river ( where I am standing) you can see the tree where I took the picture of the girls.
Me grooming Quin (the horse) before the saddling up. 
Getting into the big arena.
It was fun but I had to remember to remain hopeful... considering the fact that there is so much to remember and the desire to know it perfectly now...... patience... humility... Peace.I praise God that I have the opportunity to be around these beautiful creatures. Praise God for His goodness!
Here are some more pictures from when we went camping with my godparents (also my aunt and uncle) their granddaughter (my cousin once removed) and my other aunt with three of her daughters. Dad didn't come with us because he participated in the Golf for life.
I didn't take very many at all. Just one day when we went to the river to swim. I guess I just wasn't in a "pictures taking mood"
The first day we just set up and talked ... what else do people do the majority of the time?
There was no swimming in the lake for wierd reasons that none of us can figure out. Don't tell me we can't swim in it because its drinking water.... I know thats what they say but PLEASE... if you have boats in there (leaking oil and all that good stuff, I can grantee) and fish of all kinds (cat fish and bass .. to name only a few) why in the world would say that you can't swim? AND to top it all off... we went to the river to go swimming BUT the river runs into the lake.. so sooner or later our germs (if that's what they really are worried about) will get into the lake which will then be brought into homes coming from the faucet... after being purified I am sure.
So anyways.... back to the subject... WE rented a motor boat for two hours that fit four at a time. With Stephanie driving and Anna Maria, Katie and myself as passengers we went out for an hour and then came back to dock so James could have a wing and driving the boat, with Anne Catherine, Faustina and Uncle Phil as passengers.
We had many visits from the local Skunks and raccoons at night and early in the morning... I was disappointing that I slept through all of them..... yeah.. right... and mother was so thrilled to welcome them at the door.... more like the tent flap. The skunks preferred the trash bag the first night while the Raccoon had it right all along for he went straight to the source... the ice chest. He got three eggs before mom decided to risk the skunk so as to save the eggs. There were three eggs missing in the morning.
the second night... after checking to make sure that everything was in the car .. out of reach of stinking little paws... mother once more heard the guests returning... and it sounded as if they were having a feast. Munch ..crunch crunchcrunch ...Munch crunch crunchcrunch. The Gram Crackers were left out next to the fire. So I guess after their midnight meal they were not completed satisfied and decided to see if any snacks, whether small or large, was concealed under the tent.
By morning all of the gram crackers were gone... a whole box... well... the box was still there, completely intact actually, but the contents had been devoured by the occupants of the camp in the earlier morning hours.
Both nights I had slept with Katie in her tent and was not disturbed whats so ever by any four legged local residents of Lake Cachuma.
The swimming hole that was so enjoyed. 
Stephanie and Anna trying to find reception. 
The girls after some time in the river and the bank. Isn't that a great tree?
A beautiful view of the bank from the middle of the river ( where I am standing) you can see the tree where I took the picture of the girls.
Monday, June 14, 2010
I had a great time this last weekend because I had my first real riding lesson!!! After that I went down to San Louise with the Allens and they took me to a bonfire and then I spent the night at their house. I went to mass with them and then came home. I know that was really quickly explained but I am getting, supposed to be, ready to go camping. We are going to Lake Cachuma.... no idea how to correctly spell that.... we are meeting up with my Aunt and Uncle and another Aunt and a few cousins. It will be simple but fun.
roasting marshmallows and... Meatballs?
you have got to be kidding me.... oh well... lets make the most of it!
,................burning the evidence.
The pictures of my riding lesson are on the other computer so I will do that later... I have to go and finish packing because we are leaving in a half-n- hour.
God bless you
Your sister in Christ
Guinevere
P.S. I am going to miss HR... and everyone in that class.
roasting marshmallows and... Meatballs?
you have got to be kidding me.... oh well... lets make the most of it!
,................burning the evidence.The pictures of my riding lesson are on the other computer so I will do that later... I have to go and finish packing because we are leaving in a half-n- hour.
God bless you
Your sister in Christ
Guinevere
P.S. I am going to miss HR... and everyone in that class.
Friday, June 11, 2010
Picures we're AWESOME!!
AAAHHHH!! Guin that looked like sooooooooo much funn!!! And our hat is soooo cute too!!! i'm sad that Zephyr and i weren't able to come and see you but we have 42 days left till Steubenville!!(i have a countdown on my homepage:P well i love ya!!
♥Always
Gryphon
♥Always
Gryphon
Thursday, June 10, 2010
i love the pictures!!!
Oh my gosh! The the pictures of your trip are so good!!!!! How long does it take you to do that??
You look good in all the pictures too, and the story was really funny:)
I have to go, sorry!
Z
You look good in all the pictures too, and the story was really funny:)
I have to go, sorry!
Z
350th post celebration!
Dear Girls-
I am pleased to announce that this post makes the 350th post on our blog. It has been an amazing journey so far, and I'm sure that we will have many memories from this experience. You both helped to make my life complete, and I don't know who I would be without you guys. I love you so much, don't ever forget that.
Sincerely,
Zephyr Xena Anonymous
350th post congratulator
I am pleased to announce that this post makes the 350th post on our blog. It has been an amazing journey so far, and I'm sure that we will have many memories from this experience. You both helped to make my life complete, and I don't know who I would be without you guys. I love you so much, don't ever forget that.
Sincerely,
Zephyr Xena Anonymous
350th post congratulator
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Back from the Zoo!
Our Zoo Experience!
We had a good day in Fresno, visiting Margaret and seeing the Animals in Chaffee Zoo.
We ate Lunch on the grass of the park out side the Zoo. We had peanut Butter and Jelly (the good stuff)
I always like to see the wolves but didn't any Great shots of them, though I did get some good pics off the residents of the Reptile house.
I took some cute pictures of Stephanie...
we had fun posing and I have more fun looking at the pictures on my computer later.
Everyone watching the Funny looking Anteater! ↓
Stephanie has forever loved Hippos and was deeply affected when Bubbles died. She felt strongly that the Zoo was just not the same with out a Hippo. She was thrilled when she found this one! ↓
♥Elephants have always held a place in our hearts as well. ♥
Giraffes have always been mothers favorite and Anne Catherine benefited from her appreciation of these magnificent creatures.
It Looks as if she found her place in the world! ;) She has quite the potential. :) I love that Girl!
James may be growing but he isn't that tall... yet.
Here are a few of our new found acquaintances.
As we were leaving the Zoo I found a huge mouth on one of the post lining the walk way.
I have never seen such a huge mouth.
Well I hope that you liked the tour of the Zoo and the window into my family life.
See ya'all!
Guin
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Off to the Zoo!
YEAH!! Good Morning people!
Today ... in just an hour... we are going up to Fresno to see Margaret and to go to the Zoo!
I don't have any pictures to post yet (daaa!) but I will post as soon as I am able when I get back.
I love you girls
God bless you
Your sister in Christ
Guin
Today ... in just an hour... we are going up to Fresno to see Margaret and to go to the Zoo!
I don't have any pictures to post yet (daaa!) but I will post as soon as I am able when I get back.
I love you girls
God bless you
Your sister in Christ
Guin
Thursday, June 3, 2010
What a great beginning!
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